“It is not within our power to place the divine teachings directly in someone else's heart. All that we can do is place them on the surface of the heart so that when the heart breaks they will drop in.” – Hasidic anecdote
It's national poetry month and what am I doing? Not going to slam poetry tonight. I'm just not feeling it. I'm not feeling like driving to Omaha or spending the money to put the gas in my car or to read my poetry. I'm just not in the mood. It's the night where they'll choose the Nebraska National Slam Poetry Team -- a team I can't be a part of, because I won't be around this summer. But my stomach aches, I'm exhausted for some reason, and I'm just not feeling the poetry scene right now. It isn't writer's block -- I've BEEN writing. It's something else.
Anyhow, I intend on sleeping when I'm done here, and then doing homework tonight. I have a decent amount of reading to do, among other things.
I'm just feeling really distant today. But that quote is uplifting in that I feel like there's a constant supply of divine teaching resting on the surface of my heart so that everytime my heart shatters, it can come in and build it up again. It's comforting for me.